I wonder why

Suddenly this thoughts come to me,

There are boys who confessed to me before but I'm so dumbfounded to know it's the truth and keep making it as a joke. Later did I know, they are moving on and left me with some kind of weird feeling and I feel like I've been left. The truth is, I really thought they are joking because the 'place' and 'how they do' the confession is really not suitable and that is why I never thought it was serious.

The thing is, after I knew they like me and then they have given up, I start to realize and slowly liking them back but it was too late. So, I just decide to let things just go with the flow and keep crushing with people who I seriously had no chance with.

Then, there's this one guy I used to like but when I try to confessed, he humiliate me with his cuss and I cannot stand those humiliation and later I got so mad and I told all my close friends about it and they warned me not to like him anymore because he was being such bitchy all that but I was fine with that and slowly I starts to move on.

And then, I found myself still stalking him.

What is wrong with me?

I always been so wrong to think that he likes me too but he's not.

and and and........ why the hell he's tweeting like replying to my post....... how can I not think like that?! UGH

I seriously gonna like you back if you really like me. Do confess if you really do.
(I sounds like someone desperate but whatever)