As I age, the tears flowing so easily when I'm scared or being hurt or mad. I really hate this side of me like yknow I'm trying to be tough here but I end up being such a weakling.
I just know my real attitude is when I'm being nice to people and do many kind of things for them I didn't even remember till someone talk about how unfair I am when I done one wrong things. This is why people said 'Buat baik macam mana sekalipun once you done only one things wrong, people will always remember'.
My older brother keep cussing me at me saying me 'bodoh bangang' like many times just because of milo ice cream that I thought he didn't want (Stupid reason to fight but he made it like a very serious matter)) and I just kept quiet but then my older sister who's not close to him backed me up and he's like very angry with my sister for voicing her heart out and she cried because she can't understand why my brother acting like that. Then, my tears starts to flow as my mom did too, she said "Mak besarkan dia pun tak pernah cakap die mcam tu bang" "kadang-2 die yang tolg jage anak kau", what my mom said bring back all the memories I helped him taking care of his daughter and son when in the beginning, I never intend to do that things so that I get praise or something from him. I helped him out of love, but he never saw it and yet just because one of simple things, he got all mad and hurt my feelings.
I always thought of having a revenge on him but whatever I did everything just a waste of time, I love him, my family and my best friend more than they could ever know. Even though they hurt me, I always find a reason why I should love them more.
I have such a weak heart.