- I'm away from home which is the place I comfortable the most and I could get many of my need from it. The place where even I feel happy or sad, I always feel contented knowing that I'm home.
- Being away from Safwan is the most hardest thing because I already started to feel like he's my home where I do get comfortable around him, I literally showed him 80% of my real attitude and how I can become so dirty-minded at times. You know, I hardly can confess my actual feelings to anyone except my best friend but currently they are busy, and my parents, I don't want to make them to feel worried about me, so I tell all my daily activities to Safwan. My only sweetheart hihi.
- Sadly, my parents didn't give much attention at me since I entered this place, I mean like its my first time living all by myself out here but they didn't call me like you know aren't they worried or something? haha it's not like I want them to be so worried. I mean like, heyyy it's my first time. At the end, I ended up calling them instead.
- My roommates wasn't close to me, its not like we're having problem and not talking to each other or what, it just that we don't have chemistry that could bond us to be more closer. She does her own things everyday, so does me. Sometimes, I sleep alone in my room because she might feel bored of me maybe, I don't know, since it is month of Ramadan, I let it pass.
- Lecturers here aren't as sweet and nice as my teachers before, I know its the new level of education system but it doesn't mean lecturer can do as they like (but hell yeah they can here). I feel so fucked up when one of my lecturers is so sensitive about all things that I done and it annoys me a lot.
- Oh yeah forgot to tell ya, here, I got the third last farthest hostel ever. Like walking 2km to get to the class. If I want to buy outside food, I must walk another 1km which gives the totals to 3km. I don't know if this is the cause I lost too much weight or what. Seriously, I get sick two week straight before this and it sucks a lot. My schedule of eating is so un-proper with unbalanced diet, how I could not get sick? the nearest cafe always sells the same food and it bores me.
- All of the above is the reason why I should go back home every week. I know you called it as 'HOMESICK' but whatever.
This blog contented with what I had feel, currently feel or bucket of wishlist for my future. Things you don't really know bout me might be expose here. It's my feelings that I kept hidden.
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